I'm having a very, very difficult time. Today was especially bad. Called a suicide hotline and spoke to a couple friends, but I am in a seriously bad place and most likely this will last a month or more. I'll do my best to get the art I owe done in a timely fashion, but for now I am closing commissions because I can't handle anything. I'm going to need you guys to be patient and gentle with me, I'm sorry, I'm in a very bad place. If you are considering suicide, please please please call a hotline, they're very helpful. I'm sorry for troubling you guys with this, but I figured that it would be better if you guys knew that I am extremely fragile right now. If you could send some positive vibes or prayers or what-have-you my way, it would be much appreciated. This is the lowest I've felt since my suicide attempt in 2012 and I have 90% fewer coping resources, so I need some luck and some gentleness right now. Thank you.
Edit- I don't have the energy to respond to all your comments, but they really do mean a lot. Thank you. Again.
Edit x2: Parents have discovered my self harm relapse. I've made an appointment with my therapist and my boss is willing to give me some time off. I can't tell if everything is falling apart or coming together. Please be patient with me. This is going to take a while.